October 1998

+ Tuesday - October 27, 1998

Yes, I'm busy. VERY busy, and it will remain that way for a while. Vitavision is dead for now...I have no clue when it will be back up. Basically, it sucks. I'm probably gonna need a separate computer to run it off of, but we'll have to see. Sorry about all that. So basically, my site will be boring and so will I since email will be to a minimum as well. But I suppose in the end, this too shall pass.

+ Tuesday - October 20, 1998

Ah, yes, now I'm running at 128MB of memory. The freedom! Also, updates on vitaflo.com will probably be sparse if best for a little bit. I'm working on the redesign of the site (since I'm really sick of this one) and that's probably what I'm gonna be doing for a while instead of the usual time I spend updating the page I do now. It should be good, and I like what I've done so far, even if the main page is twice the size of the old one, so it'll be a heafty download for those of you on a modem connection (which I'm trying to work on). When it's done it should be a little nicer site. At least, that's my goal. I'm taking my time this time around and not making it a rush job that this site is. Hopefully that will show through in the final product.

+ Saturday - October 17, 1998

At the request of Susan, I'm supposed to write something in today's journal. See I write to Susan probably more than anyone else (acutally I know I do) yet she still wants me to put something in my journal. So like what am I gonna put on here that she already doesn't know? I mean it's not like I've done anything of interest lately. I have no great insights into human existance right now, so basically I have little to write. I will say a few things however about this site. Ok, people check it out every once and a while, but I want to know what people want to see more of, less of, etc. I'm thinking of doing a redesign soon, just to make things easier to get to, perhaps think of other ways to put different content on the page, etc. I just don't know what yet. I don't know what people would even be interested in seeing/reading. I'll just have to figure that out at a later date perhaps. If you have ANYTHING you'd like to see, suggestions, anything really, email me at brent@vitaflo.com.

+ Tuesday - October 13, 1998

Random thoughts:

Baseball is fucking stupid. Any game that decides to preempt Ally McBeal shouldn't be allowed in America, even if it's America's great pastime. Didn't we all stop watching it when McGuire hit number 70?

The Backstreet Boys just ain't what they used to be. I used to think they were cool, but now I gotta say N-Sync is the shit. As for Five, they're from bloody England so they don't even count.

Girls never listen. I don't know a single man who doesn't think girls look more attractive with long hair, yet every girl I know now has a dyke cut. Of course, this doesn't stop guys from hitting on girls, so they never figure this out.

Monday Night Football. Besides being on while Ally is (see above) do they really think they're gonna attract today's kids to watch with that old and tired Hank Williams Jr number at the beginning? If they'd have Marilyn Manson saying "Monday Night Football" in the song "The Beautiful People" it would be the marketing coup of the century.

+ Sunday - October 11, 1998

Well, Saturday wasn't as entertaining as Friday night, but it was still fun. Andy and I went for a walk on the trail outside my apartment, and it was pretty cool. I really never knew I was near such a cool park. We also decided to go to St. Paul. Not to go drink or anything, but to find out where Andy's interview is tomorrow. St. Paul is pretty cool as well. I haven't been there since 6th grade. We also checked out the rich neighborhood by my house, and DAMN, I gotta get me some cash money. Those houses are so cool. We went over and had Andy meet Karla and some people and that was cool, and then we left to go to Williams which is a bar with like a million beers on tap. The shit is expensive, but good. Andy kicked my ass in darts and then we took off. We played some video games and that was about it. Today's been pretty boring, just relaxing and shit. Andy's attempting to beat Final Fantasy VII in one day. Good luck to him. :) And that's about it!! No clue what we're doing tonight, but I just know I'm not looking forward to work tomorrow.

+ Saturday - October 10, 1998

Andy is in the HOUSE!! Ok, Andy got here last night earlier than I expected. We chatted for a while and then went out. I had decided we'd go to the 7 Corners district and hang out at Sgt. Preston's. We went there and I thought it'd be packed since it's near the U. Well, there weren't many people there, but that ended up being good cuz we really just wanted to play darts and shit. We beat each other a couple times in darts, got a free play on the pinball machine and then decided to go across the street to Grandma's bar. When I told Andy that there was a place called Grandma's he laughed (and I thought it sounded sorta lame as well, but I figured if it was near campus it must have some kids there). Well, we walk in and OH MY GOD. This place was packed and it was like Baba Louie's back home only to the tenth degree. They had a small dance floor, but people were doing more scamming than really dancing. Actually the whole place was just people trying to hook up. It was just fucking nuts. One thing we both noticed is that chicks around here make a lot of eye contact with people. At first I was like, shit, this chick digs me, but then I find out EVERY girl does that. So while things felt similar, they were very different as well. All in all though, a good time, and I finally got to take the express lane home! WOOHOO!! We're going out again tonight. More tomorrow....

+ Thursday - October 8, 1998

This week has been all over the place, which has been good and bad. But regardless of how it has been, this weekend should be a good time. My friend Andy is coming to visit from St. Norbert. This will really give me a chance to go out to bars around here with someone I'm used to going out with. I'm not really sure how it will pan out. I mean, I'm just as new to the bar scene here as Andy is, so I'm hoping we'll have fun. I'm hoping he has fun because I know he's thinking of moving out here and I would like him to be excited by that prospect if he does, instead of downed by it if he ends up having a bad time here. Either way it'll be an experience, and really I think that's the most important part. Well, that, and it gives me a reason to clean up my appartment for a change.

+ Tuesday - October 6, 1998

For those of you who haven't seen it, watch Felicity. It's on Tuesdays at 8 Central on the WB. As much as I love Ally McBeal, I've been disappointed at the lack of decent shows on TV. I thought Ally would be the only decent show on now that Seinfled is off the air, but I kept seeing commercials for the Felicity show and thought I'd check it out. It is one of the better shows I've ever seen on TV. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that I was just in college, or maybe it's because I made a big choice in moving out here when I didn't know anyone. But for whatever reason, the show really hits home for me, and any time a show can do that, I will watch till the day it goes off the air. So if you have a chance, check it out, and if you need to get up to speed on what has happened so far, let me know.

+ Monday - October 5, 1998

Ok, so going to Norbert's was good...and bad. I ended up going home with this girl on Saturday night. Now that's not inherently bad in itself, but it made me think a lot, and that is bad. I've known this girl for a long time, before I even went to college, and it just all seemed so weird. I always thought she was really cool, but she had a boyfriend for ever. I found out this last weekend that they had broken up about 5 months ago. I haven't seen this girl for a long time so I didn't know. Nothing really happened, but I think it was the thought behind the whole thing that got me thinking. The night went really well, and everything was pretty perfect. Then I had to leave. The very next day I have to leave to come back to Minnesota and she's still at school. It's not that I thought anything was really going to happen, but it's simply the principle of the matter. And while thinking about that principle, it made me think of a lot of other things. Namely that there really isn't much good relationship material out there. The more women I meet, the more women I find would be good dates, but very few would be the kind of person I'd want to really get serious with. And this is what really bothers me. Though perhaps in the end it's a good thing. Once I do find someone that is what I really want, I know they'll be pretty special, and that's never a bad thing. So maybe this whole thing wasn't so weird afterall.

+ Thursday - October 1, 1998

Ah yes, tomorrow I get to go to good old St. Norbert College. It's funny how much fun I have when going back there. I was hoping that by now I'd have as much fun being here, but alas, that's not the case. I think it has a lot to do with how I am around here. When I'm at school I can be my total self...wild, crazy, insane and all that. People accept that that's just how I am, and I think that they like the fact that I am just who I am and nothing more. Being here though is different. While I can just hang loose and be myself with my friends, it's always been hard to just be me around people I don't know as well or have a real personal connection with. And I think I know why. I have friends at school who are just totally nuts and funny as all hell, though if someone walked into the room that didn't know them they'd think that the person needed some mental treatment. It's all about getting to know the person and understanding who they are. Once you have that then I think those things shine through and you really can grasp how cool people can really be. This doesn't really happen on a first impression basis. And since I don't have that bond I have with my friends back at SNC here, it's harder to just let my hair down. Thankfully there is still a place where I can do that, at least for now.